Homesick

I have been through a lot of changes in the past few months. That's nothing though compared to what's been going on in my mind lately. I've been here in Vancouver for almost 6 months now. I got a new job, moved to a new apartment, met a lot of new people and visited some new places. Everything is quiet. Everything looks stable.. except my mind.

I've been stressing a lot lately. I have been thinking of my way of life here and back in the Philippines. When I start comparing, it is very clear to me that I had a better life when I was in the Philippines. Yes I'm making more money here. Yes I'm putting more on savings here. Yes I have better appliances and gadgets here. But you know what, I was still so much happier when I was living in my little apartment with a lot less than perfect set of appliances and furnitures, making just enough money to pay for my bills with a little extra, not much of it going to savings. I was much happier when I was commuting through the slow traffic compared to my trips on the reliable and fast buses and trains of Vancouver. I was happier just window shopping for techno gadgets as compared to now that I can buy some of it with less pain on the pocket.

What makes that so? I think it's really the people. The saying that goes "you can't buy happiness" will be appropriate here. No matter how much money you have in the world if you don't have the people you like around you, it's no use. You cannot be truly happy with just material stuff. And now I can attest to that. I am a living proof.

I am homesick. I miss my real home.